T-Bone AKA Taylor

So Taylor is turning 2 in 5 days. It seems like yesterday I found out I was pregnant. I really blinked and 2 years have gone by. It amazes me how quickly it goes by. Although it makes me sad that he is not my little baby anymore, I have enjoyed every stage so far. I think that I cant love him more and he does something so cute and funny and my heart melts. And then he does something so completely frustrating that i just need to leave the room. Just like any relationship motherhood is such a roller coaster ride. But with so many more highs than lows for sure.

Sometimes when I look at my child I am overwhelmed by the magnitude of the responsibility I have been given. I have the job of molding and guiding this small person into adulthood and attempting in the process to make as few mistakes as possible. As I look around at all the craziness that is our world I want to shelter him from all the mess but know that in doing so I would deprive him of the good stuff that is there as well. So I am going to have to attempt to find a balance of protecting and letting him explore. It really does make my head spin a bit if I think about it so much...

But I also look at him and it makes me smile from ear to ear that I am the one that has been given this huge responsibility. I look at him and I see everything good. You cant help but smile when he walks into the room. And it makes your heart happy when he says you name. He says it with such joy. He already is such a little man that I know I am going to blink again and he will be in collage. But I am learning to enjoy each season as it comes. Making the most of each moment. Happy Birthday Taylor!

Sweet River, roll all over me-Waterdeep

Well I figured since everyone seems to has a blog, I figure I should start one as well. Although I really dont have much to write about, it is nice to have some where I can express thoughts and ideas that might pop into my head.

Sunday night I was able to go to a Waterdeep concert. And for those of you who are not familiar with them, they are an amazing Christian band. They have been around for a long time, and produced many albums, but have not been doing any concerts for a while. At least not in Tulsa. Well anyways, I was able to go with my younger sisters,who have never seen them in concert. Being able to hear them play again was such an experience. They have impacted my life so much and over the years their music has always moved me in a way that no other band has. Their music is simple and some how has always spoken directly to me. Over the years their music has brought me to tears so many times because I could relate to the pain of the human struggle. But the music has always made me happy because the beat of the song and the hope that their message brings. And the common love for the music brought me close to some people. The friendships didnt last but when I hear some songs it takes me back to that time in my life. "Aaron, I dont think I've ever wanted as much To be free as I've longed to be know...One line from a songs that I have always liked.

Seeing them in concert brought back all those good and bad feeling rolled into one. I was able to meet and talk to Lori Chaffer for the first time. But for some reason I turned into a complete bumbling idiot. Some how I felt like I knew her and it would be like talking to an old friend that I have not seen in a long time. But when I introduced myself I realize I was a stranger and as I tried to regroup I must have just sounded silly. But I was glad that I at least got to meet her, shake her had and introduce her to my sisters.